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I absolutely love the loving kindness meditation. I find this very appropriate in my life. I try to love everyone. God wants us to love everyone, no matter what. To pray for our loved ones and our enemies, to forgive them, and to love them. I am not saying that it is easy for me, but I know that it is the right thing to do. God's words say it well..."And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love" (1 Corinthians 13: 13). You have to love everyone people!! :) It truly and honestly makes the world a better place…as cheesy as that sounds. When I only think about love and how I can be of help to others and to love them and care for them, it makes me feel amazing. One can't help but being happy and spreading more love. It is a real test though when you find someone who rejects your love. I want to quit sometimes and just think that it's their loss, but that's when they need it the most. That's where I figure out ways around things to still show my love and let them know that I care.

The area that I would like to focus on for growth and development would be biological. I am in no means worried about my nutrition, body, or weight, etc. But the thing is I grew up playing sports and being extremely active my whole entire life all the way up until about last year. I am even a certified personal trainer, however I am not practicing this profession at the time. Because of this, I literally do not have a strict workout schedule like I have had my entire life. Fortunately, I eat healthy and move around a bit nannying my 3 nieces (all under the age of 5) and I have not gained any weight (although I have lost some muscle). But mentally it has messed with my head and I feel like I am weak. I feel unaccomplished and at times frustrated with myself. I was just so used to always doing something, and now that it has not been made a priority it is hard. So I would like to improve (slowly but surely) my physical fitness training. Come to think of it I can use some work on more mind/body exercises as well.

I know that I need to mentally work on my mind set on not getting frustrated or upset with myself for not exercising. I feel that when I get past that frustration, I will feel more motivated and energized to actually put more effort into making it another priority. I do not want to go overboard though, because I have many, many priorities that still need tending too. When I am with my nieces I can incorporate more outdoor (now that the weather is nice) activities. That has worked in the past, but I think I kept making excuses or they really were excuses. I know the girls love being active and involved so I need to focus on learning more activities that can be beneficial to me and fun for them. Accountability partners are fabulous! I know my husband is a great one. He actually says he wants to work on his workout routines as well, but it's hard for him since he's a workaholic. :) In the past we made a great team since we held each other accountable. Plus we can enjoy the time together even if it's hard and we want to give up.